Post by Aedon Durreah on Jun 22, 2011 14:46:09 GMT -5
I have this cat.
He has been my companion for many years now.
And through the many years we have shared, he has gone from a tiny kitten climbing the coverlets to get into the bed at night, to a serene old cat, sitting with a cats dignity at my side on the sofa. I have never had to call him to come to me, it seems he has just always been there.
Any of you who have owned, or now own, a cat will know what I am speaking of when I say that he can think of more ways to entertain himself, and me, then can be counted with ease. And like many cats, he can be quite vocal in letting me know what it is he wants or needs.
He has quite a vocabulary, using changes in tone to convey happiness, sorrow, fear and love. And on the occasions when I have found darkness surrounding my thoughts, his steady purr as he lay calmly on my lap has been soothing, leading me back from the brink of despair.
I suppose many times I have looked the fool as I played a game of hide and seek, or catch with him through our house. He has always been better at this game then I, popping up from behind the sofa to slap at me quickly, before darting off to one of the other rooms. He always won the game, though a few times, I think he allowed me to believe I was victorious, if just for a few moments.
I have heard it said before that cats leave little paw-prints on our hearts. This makes me laugh a bit, seeing that my cat has these huge paws. So, I will say that the prints he leaves will be huge, and know in time they will lay heavy and hollow on me.
The years passed quickly, perhaps too much so for me. And I now look to my side to see a much thinner creature. His fur, which once lay silky on his back has become coarse and gray with age, his steady purr has become more a ragged thrum. The games of chase have given way to quiet evenings sitting happily on my lap atop the electric blanket, or curled up, sleeping inside his favorite kitty cube. His eyes look up at me with the same love, but there is a tiredness in them, and I see, sadly, the approaching end of our time together.
There is a rhythm to life that cannot be denied or changed. We can use pills, special foods, and other measures in an attempt to draw out, or extend our time together. But doing such things robs all dignity and purpose from a life well lived, a love freely and happily offered. It would be better still, and show far more respect and appreciation for what was given me if I instead hold him one last time, and sit with him as he passes away in gentle sleep.
I do not look forward to this day, but know full well that it draws ever closer. And when his time has passed, I know full well that I will, as when his sister passed, reach down from time to time to stroke his fur, or strain my ears to hear his gentle purr as my own time grows closer.
This is the joy and sorrow of keeping cats.
I tell myself time and again that I will not take in another, that this will be my final furred companion. But we do not always have a choice in such things, so perhaps I should instead say that with all the cats who have left their mark on my heart, there is always room for one more paw-print.
He has been my companion for many years now.
And through the many years we have shared, he has gone from a tiny kitten climbing the coverlets to get into the bed at night, to a serene old cat, sitting with a cats dignity at my side on the sofa. I have never had to call him to come to me, it seems he has just always been there.
Any of you who have owned, or now own, a cat will know what I am speaking of when I say that he can think of more ways to entertain himself, and me, then can be counted with ease. And like many cats, he can be quite vocal in letting me know what it is he wants or needs.
He has quite a vocabulary, using changes in tone to convey happiness, sorrow, fear and love. And on the occasions when I have found darkness surrounding my thoughts, his steady purr as he lay calmly on my lap has been soothing, leading me back from the brink of despair.
I suppose many times I have looked the fool as I played a game of hide and seek, or catch with him through our house. He has always been better at this game then I, popping up from behind the sofa to slap at me quickly, before darting off to one of the other rooms. He always won the game, though a few times, I think he allowed me to believe I was victorious, if just for a few moments.
I have heard it said before that cats leave little paw-prints on our hearts. This makes me laugh a bit, seeing that my cat has these huge paws. So, I will say that the prints he leaves will be huge, and know in time they will lay heavy and hollow on me.
The years passed quickly, perhaps too much so for me. And I now look to my side to see a much thinner creature. His fur, which once lay silky on his back has become coarse and gray with age, his steady purr has become more a ragged thrum. The games of chase have given way to quiet evenings sitting happily on my lap atop the electric blanket, or curled up, sleeping inside his favorite kitty cube. His eyes look up at me with the same love, but there is a tiredness in them, and I see, sadly, the approaching end of our time together.
There is a rhythm to life that cannot be denied or changed. We can use pills, special foods, and other measures in an attempt to draw out, or extend our time together. But doing such things robs all dignity and purpose from a life well lived, a love freely and happily offered. It would be better still, and show far more respect and appreciation for what was given me if I instead hold him one last time, and sit with him as he passes away in gentle sleep.
I do not look forward to this day, but know full well that it draws ever closer. And when his time has passed, I know full well that I will, as when his sister passed, reach down from time to time to stroke his fur, or strain my ears to hear his gentle purr as my own time grows closer.
This is the joy and sorrow of keeping cats.
I tell myself time and again that I will not take in another, that this will be my final furred companion. But we do not always have a choice in such things, so perhaps I should instead say that with all the cats who have left their mark on my heart, there is always room for one more paw-print.