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Post by kaylor on Jan 17, 2010 10:11:42 GMT -5
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Post by kaylor on Jan 19, 2010 20:11:50 GMT -5
I will hunt him down and destroy him, son or not! Do what is right?! Give his will over to faith?! If anyone knows faith, it is I. What Xan now believes in pursuit of purity will bring him only to his end!
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Post by kaylor on Jan 21, 2010 15:52:18 GMT -5
I have spoken with Leston and learned the truth of what I am become. The Lich Lord's soul reaver has taken more than I'd anticipated. No matter - it is far too late now for regrets. He offered me the path toward Illuminati and I've accepted, awaiting a meeting with him and Arakad to discuss it further. A final tide has ebbed away from the shore of my existence, my decision to recede with it relentless in its finality. I cannot know where my future leads me, but of one thing I am certain - Skyler shall accompany me there for she remains forever in my heart.
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Post by kaylor on Jan 23, 2010 22:17:58 GMT -5
Last night Rykus assisted my first step on the path toward becoming Illuminati, informing me of the need to obtain a lich phylactery - a container of sorts within which to keep the dust of my human remains ever near and secure. Whatever it is that I choose, the item must bear special significance to me as well as having had come into my possession at greater than monetary cost.
I seek answers and find none forthcoming. It's different for everyone is all I am told by each whom I ask. A conversation I once shared with an Undead being who brought me to Necropolis in my early days with Everthorne now repeats itself most grimly in the far recesses of my mind. He told me how he'd given himself to the Guardian for the promise of power and explained the 'ceremony' by which his sacrifice had been achieved. It was appalling to me at the time, yet here I am doing the same albeit for a reason unrelated to the attainment of power. Like him, will my flesh also be burned from my bones or ............. ? I dare not think on it lest I turn away. No. My course is set, my steerage straight; fearless and determined!
Where yesterday I clung to hope that Skyler may return, today brings me to doubt what my heart so wished. The closer I move toward my eternal damnation the more distance I place between the two of us. When Aedon tossed the Bible she'd given me onto the ground last eve I quickly rushed to take the precious tome into my hand, but was then at a loss as to how to explain it to my LICH family so I laid it back down in the grass and walked away from it. Immediately I felt as though I were walking away from the fantasy I'd been holding to, accepting the fact that I'd never see her again.
In the meantime Liessa confesses to love me. She is tender, beautiful . . . but just now I am not in a place to welcome her love - or anyone's. Recent losses embitter me and I have much to accomplish before I allow myself such vulnerabilities again.
Craig never spoke of having fathered a girl child. Strange how fate has brought me to my sister in this God-forsaken Sosaria. I don't know what to feel about this yet. My ability to trust has been so mutilated that I give it little if at all any more, however I cannot say a sister would be unwelcome.
Compounded with all I have just written, my quest for Gideon's book continues tomorrow.
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Post by kaylor on Jan 25, 2010 1:44:58 GMT -5
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Post by kaylor on Jan 31, 2010 22:11:00 GMT -5
The Ancient One said a lich exists for power. I reach for release - release from the lies of virtue, release for the truth within me. They wish my demise, I give it to them . . . and along with it bring them theirs!! www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBcQ_KJ27p4 |
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Post by kaylor on Feb 1, 2010 17:19:00 GMT -5
Layre tells me that Avalon came to Umbra seeking knowledge from Arakad with regard to her 'etchings'. She asked me for the same not long ago. It cannot be known whether this be truly what she seeks or that she's attempting to ingratiate herself with one of the Illuminati in order to further her 'watching', however the fact that Izznet came to ask that it not be told speaks much toward what is suspected. What business is it of hers what is spoken within the LICH stronghold? Then to warn Layre that should anything be said Avalon would not return . . . a known Aegis 'watcher' who I, myself, have seen giving verbal as well as written reports of her observations over to Aedon? It is laughable at best that anyone should care. And who is Izznet to Avalon that she comes to us making requests on her behalf? I have seen her lurking about Umbra of late. Her actions today give reason to keep a closer watch. She is ever rude to me, but carrying that forward in address to a female of LICH will not be tolerated.
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Post by kaylor on Feb 12, 2010 20:38:36 GMT -5
I have found serenity . . . at last.
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Post by kaylor on Feb 14, 2010 1:41:13 GMT -5
I've received word that Lauranna has taken flight yet again. It's typical of her to run into any man's arms as long as he'll take pity on her, while spurning those who refuse to fall prey to her manipulative wiles. Did Clive somehow discover her whereabouts and sneak into our stronghold to free her or mayhaps was it some other unfortunate? I, for one, would consider myself the luckiest man of all time were she never to appear in my presence again. Certainly, I won't be going out of my way to find a wench who I couldn't care less about, however if I should happen upon her she shall deeply regret having made the mistake of crossing my path.
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Post by kaylor on Feb 17, 2010 19:27:51 GMT -5
I feel the hatred of many here. Many. It doesn't stop me. I like it, feed off it, for it lays bare the truth I've always known. But, Sky . . . that truth stops me cold, like an ice dagger ravaging my heart. She saw a man who was not there and gave her love trusting in someone who did not exist. The dread in her eyes when her gaze meets mine, the tension in her touch when she pushes me away . . . . .
My life, such as it is, held no meaning without her. Abduction was . . . so wrong, but not having her near was driving me insane. No harm shall come to her while I reveal the truth of the man to whom she gave her heart. If after all is said and done she still wishes release I shall honour it.
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Post by ghostwalker on Mar 22, 2011 17:08:30 GMT -5
My recent return seeking the state of Yew has brought me unexpected news. While I do not find it surprising that given opportunity Eban would delight in slaying any vampire, the loss of one I once called brother saddens and pains. As well, there was a time I held the Guardians' Senator of War in regard as equal.
Eban will explain or face due consequence. Murder is murder no matter the excuse. Was I not made to pay Olympus for such crime?!
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Post by ghostwalker on Mar 26, 2011 11:04:57 GMT -5
I sought truth from Olympus and found only that which I've known there before. Arrogance and deceit. Far worse now than then. Eban's confession came at threat in his usual manner. Honour has never been defined by the flaunting of ego and power.
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