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Post by adara on Feb 4, 2010 3:08:27 GMT -5
*journal description posted soon*
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Post by adara on Feb 4, 2010 3:18:59 GMT -5
I am failing in my duty to Gaia. I failed in stealing the boy Sef from those tainted undead. I can smell it on them the rotting death, the stench of decay and corruption. It is not visible but I can smell it, sense it, almost taste it in their spirits. It is very unsettling and I can only tolerate it for so long before my nose starts to ache. The smell rising up in my throat makes me want to lose what I have in my stomach. The boy is young and at an age perfect for imprinting the knowledge he needs but he will never learn it among those second hand mutts and followers of the wyrm. There are very few of our kind left here in this realm and I want to do everything in my power to try and preserve that. They have stolen his soul and trapped it where I cannot follow. That is the worst part.. taking his very essence and caging it like a beast. I hope that through my intervention he will one day be willing to walk away and I pray to Gaia that he will not fall so easily to corruption. They stole Kaylors soul. He has not told me but I know. There is a part of him missing. A part he does not want to go back to. How do I make him see what he does not wish to? I think he will be unhappy in that life and worse once he chooses that path he will force my hand to make him my enemy. I cannot serve Gaia faithfully while in the company of a follower of the Wyrm. It will be difficult. I think maybe if I see him one last time I can let go but it only makes it worse. I want to hold him and be held and his half smiles and withdrawal drive my heart mad. I fear his rejection more than anything. I cannot bear the thought of not having him in my life. I need an escape for this realm is crazy. I will visit the Umbra tomorrow. I miss Scotty and have not seen him for some days now. His company is more than welcome.  |
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